Thursday, May 1
New Skin For the Blog
Yup.. it's up. But not totally done up yet. I am still not happy with the skin actually. Still deciding on this and this other one. Will see what happens. Look out for it.

3 off days straight... Back to work today
I did rest well for the past 3 days. But for the past 2 mornings, I was very much awaken by my aunt. She was yelling over the phone with some construction chap. Her house is under renovation and apparently, they "destroyed" her dining table. Which basically explains her huge rage. Ol well.Blangadesh...bunch of idiots.

I din do much actually. Hmmz...

Monday
I stayed home as I said I would. I did. Slept most part of it away cos of the drug I took. Lorantidine. One of those irritating anti-histamine which claims to not cos drowsiness. Ironically, it konk me out. Was only very much awaken by my parents cos they came into my bro's room and make a huge din about god knows wad. Was sleeping at bro's room cos was watching "My Big Fat Greek Wedding." Me room got no tv nor vcd. So yep. As usual, I will just stayed in the room for most part of the remaining day and surf the net, blast the radio and just enjoy. I received a call from Angie later part. Hmmz.. She had a "cat fight" with her sis and she hates her sis channel hopping whenever she watches TV. So she came over to watch friends. I think... it had almost been quite awhile since we hang out. So yeah. Anyway, her sis sprained her finger. Looks really bad. We enjoyed the comedy and the short session of bonding.

She brought up some issues which I will like to mention.
1. Engagement
She was offered to be engaged to someone. Great news rite? But no. She is not attached with that guy 'officially.' I was shocked. I mean..huh? What the hell is the world coming to? Yes. Yes. Freedom blah blah. But manz, this is quite extreme to be accepted somehow. I am sure anyone can deal with just being hitched and just married immediately. Something like Dharma and Greg. But this is like a prolonged extended period. You know him..fairly well. Feelings developed. There's a certain uncertainty about him. *BOOM* "Ever tot of getting engaged to me?" Wad the fark? I dunno. Is weird. For the wrong reasons. "I will like to get marry early. Will you marry me if I ask you to?" I am sure gie is flying over the moon regarding this. But I totally understand her reservations. Have not got time to really ask her wad she think. Mon was a bad day. Was still very much infiltritate by the side effects of the drug. Conclusion: The earlier the fruit ripens, the faster it will rot. Go ponder.

2. Cat Fights or Fights among siblings
I dunno about you. But I definitely have one of the worst kinda of fights with my brother. We are not talking when we are young. We are talking when we are even in our teens. So far... I have not fought with my bro for a long time. Good thing. I will definitely lose with his well toned built cos of commandos. Why do we fight? I guess is just desparately wanting to get ur point over and he/she just denies ur pt of view. U get pissed. U raise a fist. And *Bish*. Let the fight begins.
I always believe when you initiate any fights, you already in the wrong. I mean, come on, why are there peace talks and shit. So that war dun happens. We are talking about a educated society here. We are talking about getting into a whole loads of verbal fights. Sacrarsm, back stab, goosips, Lies...anything, just to make sure you win. "Peace Talks" I dunno. Of cos, I am thinking of a very negative aspect of it. I am sure there's diplomacy in loads of this peace talks. But is hard to even think of them. I mean... Politics. Do I have to say more?
Conclusion: Among siblings, it's really hard to be diplomatic to each other. When it does happens, well, it so happened the moon was blue that nite. So yea. I am sure fights like these builds bonds. There's always a lingering guilt that I should not have done it. so yeah. =) I am sure we love our siblings. Yea? Laffs.

3. Flings
I know not what to think of such issues. Will I want to have one of such? The level of "desparity" is the deciding factor eh? Shrugs. There's a common acquintance of ours ( Angie and mine) is rumoured to be bedding someone. This someone is someone that he claims that he does not really like. So... the reason here is why? Anyway, loads of things we dunno. Like maybe he had probably decide to like her. Maybe tis maybe that. We dunno. But is sad to have settled for someone that you may not like but decide to have,maybe, for companionship. Is ur level of horniness a factor of a future mistake you might not be able to live with? *Ponders* I remembered Adrian ever mentioned that he hopes that he will not be able to have a day when a woman comes up to him to only tell him that the child that she is having is his. *Nightmare* Guys, watched out where you are "shooting." Laffs.

Tuesday
Decided to swim and tanned. Spent a good 2 hours at pool. The sun was scorching hot. The pool temp was just nice. Great. I was in a close encounter to talk to this stranger in the pool. But he seemed shy. So decided to forgo it. Laffs. He is quite a cutie tho. He knows that I was looking but he just smiled and looked away.

Met up with Meng after. But before I left the house, my nursing officer called me up and screwed me regarding my report of my daily 3x of temp. Hello?! Aint there any privacy on my off days? There goes the respect I have for you, fat arse. Oopz. Was there any in the first place? Nope! Sorry. Next!

So... Meng. He was literally limping the whole time I was out with him. I think it was really painful. Dear fren of mine, non compliant to crutches or partial weight bearing treatment. But is okay. Like wad I told him, you may just have an extended MC again. Laffs. Great! It was good to catch up again. Tho I was a lil drifted. I dunno why I was but yea. Ol well.

Caught 25th hour. Not bad. Any movie with a cast like Edward Norton is a good movie. I simply love him. Ever since I caught American History X, that was it. He is the man! Laffs. The movie.. Hmmz... I think to summarise it. It was just the fear of imprisonment. And you got only a day to do whatever you need to before you get in. I remembered asking Sonny. What is very important in his life. He said freedom. I think it applies for everyone. That's why the stage of rebellion when you are a teen. To break free from curfew, parental rules over you and whole loads of bullshit which they believe they are protecting you from harm. Crap. I think if harm was to inflict you, you will be fated to be harmed. No ways of prevention will help. There's this part of the movie that I like. Where Edward (Known as Monty in the show) was fucking everything that he hates in life. I understand his frustrations. But as much as frustrated as one is, life still moves on. Cant be always pondering over such brainless issues.

Yesterday
As written in the yesterday entry.

I caught Road to peridition. I fell asleep in the beginning, in the midst and nearly towards the end. Too slow. The plot is good. But is just way too slow. The movie was rather cool. Father and son collabrating to be bank robbers. Idea. Son was only 12. Was taught to drive by the dad. Totally awesome. Hehe. Have to add. His son, Micheal, is hunk factor over the scales manz! laffs. Morale of the movie plot: Never be a spy agent and risk the lives of ur family? Laffs. Ok. That was crap. Learn to appreciate everyone and everything cos you really dunno whether tomolo will ever come.

After it was Bourne Identity. Didnt managed to catch it in the cinema. It was not that great as it was claimed to be. But damn. Matt sure could fight. The moves were swift and fast. Not bad. I think that was the added part of the show. Other than that, I didnt think much of it. I like the ending tho. To be with the one you love in totally unknown place and enjoy life. Ideal. Not much of plot. But enjoyed the action. Brainless show lar. Laffs. Good Wednesday. =)

Caught the bachelor II last nite. I do enjoyed the show actually. But last nite episode, I dunno why. I feel is really crap. Is all talks and all pretence. Girls being girls. They get themselves all build up in emotions only to be be hurt at the end of the day. Sighz. Ol well. But I will still catch it. hahahaha. To see the torment. Evil! Wahahaha.

Hmmz.. There's something I had been pondering. How do you like someone and yet have loads of past feelings for ur ex? How can such superficial feelings be build up? Jeez. Ol bother. Got to end. Got to get ready for work. Till then...


Aggie at 5/01/2003 11:12:00 AM

Wednesday, April 30
Lazy Wednesday
I just refused to do anything. Stayed home to watch the movies that I rented over the weekends. Going to rest now. Most probably update tomolo morning. Nite.
Aggie at 4/30/2003 11:43:00 PM

Life
Life is a huge irony. Try this. Try to remember something you are about to say. Something bad you mouthed about someone. Trust me. In time to come, wadever you just said will happen to you. Is weird but is true. Everyone around including myself, tries to be smart. Thinking they know what is best for themselves and maybe everyone else. No one does. Is a live and try session. You will never know how it will be like till you try it out. Is full of frustrations.
Why? Why do you like someone and having only to be assumed that you are replacing him with ur ex? Why cant I be like Phoebe in FRIENDS? Why cant I just hop on to one relationship and to the next being happy? Just cos I hurt you does not mean that I cant be happy with someone else, rite? Where's the liberty that ppl always yakking about? Liberty to live, love, do whatever you want(legally at least) and blah? Must it always and will defintely be a rebound just cos I just got out of a relationship? Hello?! Wadever.
Who knows better than me about my ownself? Who? You? He? She? What? Who? I am sick of hearing ppl telling me what is right about my life. What is wrong. What I should do. What I shouldnt. If my life is so screwed, why dun u take a look at yours? Is it that perfect? Maybe till you perfect that life of yours before you start telling someone else how to live his/her life, ya? Do us all a favour and just learn to shuddap sometimes. I am not trying to deny all advises. But sometimes, is just a lil too much to handle of wad you think about my life. Ol well. Shrugz.
At the end of the day, you got to wake up from that dream and just learn to live in the real world. No escapes. No denial. Got to face the music. Night.
Aggie at 4/30/2003 01:14:00 AM

Monday, April 28
Hives
Never actually think that my allergy status gets worse than this. Yup. I got hives. More profound term for you guys out there, is called
urticaria. Is basically histamine in ur blood stream flaring up due to the allergic substance that you are allergic to. The problem is... I dunno what the hell I am allergic to. My senior was asking me whether am I stress. Cos stress can cause hives too. Hmmz... I dun think I am. Anyway, the itch is much better after taking atarax. For the 1st part of the shift, I was so drowsy. Thank God I managed to catch some rest. Hope this hives thingy wun occur again. The doc I saw this noon was really funny. Laffs. I was just betting with my bro and his gf that he prob also will not know what causes my allergy. I was right. Laffs. But ol well, docs aint God. There are times they just dunno. =)

Last Nite Duty
Yeah! 3 days off. I think I will rest today. In case, any stressful episode spur up the hives episode again.

Mothers' Day
Time sure pass us quickly. Half of year 2003 is going pass us soon. Mothers' day is coming. Cousin Cin is arranging to celebrate it together this coming weekends. She had been wanting to do it for the past few years but I was just never free. So yeah. Finally, I am avaliable in the weekends. Will see how it goes. Hope it dun turn out disaterous. Cos I dun really like cousin Cin's mom. =P Ol well. Hmmz... Wondering what to get for mom. I think I will make breakfast. Get some flowers. And just be good for that day. Laffs. At least, keep my table which is often full of books, neat. Mom always nagging abt my table. Presents dun count that much. I think being a good girl that day will really make her happy. I do sympathise with my mom alot, sometimes. I mean... my bro and me are not exactly very good kids to have. Totally rebellious. No one can rule the 2 of us. Laffs. Totally dictators in the house. =P But hey...mom mi..if you know about my blog in any event, we love you, ya? Loads. =)

Brother
He and his gf accompained me to the GP last noon. We were yakking about the past how we spent our hols together. We ain't rich kids. So usually, we do the cheap way out. And that is, stay home. Laffs. We love movies. We will rent tons of movies. Chinese, english, wadever and just watched the whole day. We love our sega and play station last time too. Before PS I ruled us @ our old place @ Sin Ming, Sega was the "in" thing. I love to play Sonic so much. I was so much better than my brother. We just love the competition. But I am better than him at Sonic. Hehe! I used Knuckles. That squrriel character. If you all can even understand my termology here. I always remember my bro being all so surprised at me those times. "Fwah! What stage is this? How come I never been there?" he will yelled. laffs.When PS I ruled us, I believed my mom will have tot that we were possessed. It was just PS and us all day all nite. The 1st game we completed together was Resident Evil 1. I tell you... that dunno wad name chap scared me so much, I refused to play that game in the nite. But when we do, I refused to sleep alone. Laffs.

Besides being very glued to the TV, we will basically exercised alot together. We love to cycle and swim. Staying @ Sin Ming give us the privilege of moving from the park to the public pool within 20 mins. So is all very convienent. Missed Sin Ming. The air always seemed much fresher there. Those days were good. Good food round the corner anytimez. U can reach town within 25 mins. Left and right, there are easy access to malls. Is great. Good memories.

From the above, you prob can tell that I am really close to my brother. Yeah, we are. But we argued alot too. Some days, those fights are so bad, we literally fight. But all's well. I guess he will only be my closest kin when my parents are gone. Got to keep good relations going on still. He is a good kid. Fillial one too. Unlike me. No matter, how rebellious he was and whatever he did. I am sure he deserved to be doted on more in the family. No hard feelings here cos I love my brother. Tho I dun tell it out loud to him, but I do. So hush peepz. This is just between us. Hehe!

Aggie at 4/28/2003 05:54:00 AM

Sunday, April 27
Rashes?
Broke into a rash just a couple of hours again while on duty. Nearly went crazy. Luckily, having a hot shower helps to relieve the itch. Thank God. Must be wondering how come I can shower in the middle of the nite eh? Laffs. That's the privilege of being in a A class ward I guess. hehe! Wondering what is causing the itch now. I dun think is food. Cos I had not eaten anything that I am allergic to. Btw, I am allergic to wasabe and the tiny orange jap fish eggs. Laffs. Weird eh? But yea. I will have bilateral orbital eye swelling which made me looks like a goldfish after that. Is a really horrid feeling to have an allergy reaction. Trust me. You will most probably wanna kill yourself then to suffer in itch. It may be the roll on deodrant I am using or the perfume? Hmmz.. not sure. But ol well. The itch is gone. Yeah!

Striking lottery
Yup. My family( Aunts, Uncle and parents) striked lottery last weekend. Going out for dinner tis evening as some sort of celebration. I think this is some sort of family practise since those days when my granny was still around. Whoever won money, be it from mahjong or 4D or wadever, there will defintely be distribution of money among the family. It may be giving money to the youngsters or a meal out with the whole family. It brings back happy memories in those days when we were younger when we were living in Toa Payoh. I remembered my gran will wake us in the middle of the nite and have supper.I always think it was really fun. Imagine. Being half awake and having really delicious supper. Going to sleep with full tummy and ending up to have nitemares. Laffs. Those days with my gran were really good. She will always bring my bro and me down to neighbourhood and eat "kwa zi" (cantonese. some sort of seeds. Dunno how u call those in english.) and she will be yakking away with her khakis. Damn. Really miss her loads.

Blog
I didn't know that trying to change the image of a blog got so much things to be read on. I am still in the midst of working on it. But I really have no time. Quite irritated by the fact that I cant have time to do things I want. Hmmz.. but I hope that it will be up by june. Part of the blog will be featuring pics of the bunch of nurses in the armour. Going to take pics of them soon. Hehe. Loads of ideas in my head. Just hope to have more free time. Wonder when I can clear my leave. Hmmz... For now, gotta work hard. Ciao.
Aggie at 4/27/2003 05:15:00 AM